To My Friends Here

Sprayber · January 7, 2003, 18:14

I just wanted to say that it's been good knowing all of ya'll. The last year has been extremly difficult as things seem to keep piling up but the root of the everything is the death of Becky around this time last year. Her being pregnant at the time made things far worse than just loosing her. I'm taking time away from everything to try to make some sense out of this. Time hasn't healed anything and in some ways it grows worse as the days turn into months and the little anniverseries pass. First time we met, first time she stayed over, first kiss things like those weigh heavy on my mind. When she had her accident, things were very complicated and in some ways very bad, but nothing I found compared to her being taken. In a way i spent the last year immearsed in other people's lives to take my mind of the great sense of emptiness that I felt. She was a larger than life character for me and her absence leaves a tremondous void.

Apolyton has been kind of my escape. Now I must take a little time to look at myself and see if this breaks me or If i can move on.

To Chris62, darlinkell, and boann, I just want to say that you guys have been more than kind to me. I'm glad you all were there and I will stay in touch with you all as much as I can. I'll be gone for a week or two helping my family out. My cousin is seriously ill and things do not look too good. My place is with my family. For people like Sloww,paiktis, Franky, Kass, Mr. President, General Tac(the entire BAC crew), all have made poly fun. All of you regulars makes poly something that I enjoyed visiting. I get pissed a lot and say things that I ordinarly wouldnt say but its not because I dont respect you. Some of you just piss me off sometimes, but thats what makes this place interesting.

Keep up the interesting topics and I'll pop in when I can. The next month will be difficult for many reasons. I'll see all of you on the flip side.

Some of you I love
Some of you make me laugh
Some of you make me roll my eyes
All of you have made Poly what it is.

Jon Miller · January 7, 2003, 18:16

Peace

Jon Miller

orange · January 7, 2003, 18:16

i don't know where I fit in all that, but it doesn't matter: Good Luck, and I sincerely hope time heals all of your wounds.

Ming · January 7, 2003, 18:27

May you find what you are looking for. Good Luck.

Arrian · January 7, 2003, 18:27

:waves:

Best of luck, Spray.

-Arrian

Bereta_Eder · January 7, 2003, 18:41

Best of luck Spray.

I've followed from the sides, from the beggining what happened, and it would be very, very hard for any man.

May all go as best as possible for you my friend

SlowwHand · January 7, 2003, 18:46

May the road rise up to meet you.
May the wind be always at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face;
the rains fall soft upon your fields and until we meet again,
may God hold you in the palm of His hand.

We'll keep you in our thoughts.

OneFootInTheGrave · January 7, 2003, 19:10

Good Luck.

Provost Harrison · January 7, 2003, 19:15

Well good luck with sorting life out. Time will help, but never completely cure.

See ya later.

alva · January 7, 2003, 19:22

Quote:

Now I must take a little time to look at myself and see if this breaks me or If i can move on

You are a very brave man.
May things go a littebit better for you every day

Good luck,

Lancer · January 7, 2003, 19:40

Anguish is the worst, but in my experience it eases with time so hang on, let the sun shine on your face. That's what loved ones would want, including those who leave you behind on this earth, and those you leave behind here.

Bye...

Dr Strangelove · January 7, 2003, 19:50

I'm sorry Sprayber, I didn't know anything about your recent tragedy.

I know I'm late at saying this, and if I'm out of line just ignore me, but it sounds like she filled your life while you had her. Even as some specific memories fade much of what you had together will go on and on. In time you may find yourself in a situation where you can pass on some of the love you learned from her to someone else.

H Tower · January 7, 2003, 20:11

Good luck Spray

SuperSneak · January 8, 2003, 02:48

I hope you find what you need, in whatever form it greets you.

I love the man that can smile in trouble, that can gather strength from distress, and grow brave by reflection. 'Tis the business of little minds to shrink, but he whose heart is firm, and whose conscience approves his conduct, will pursue his principles unto death.
--Thomas Paine (1737-1809)

Good luck and best wishes in this next stage of your journey. Remember the love you have felt and reflect it upon yourself when things seem their darkest.

Alex · January 8, 2003, 08:17

Good luck, Spray. Be happy. And come back here whenever you can. It'll be a pleasure to have you around.

Zoid · January 8, 2003, 10:38

We haven´t had much to do with oneanother Sprayber, but the best of luck to you anyway. Hope you can pick up the pieces of your life and yourself and be whole again soon.

DaShi · January 8, 2003, 10:53

Good Luck

Chris 62 · January 8, 2003, 15:08

You can never know the truly good, untill you have seen the truly bad.

The trick is to not let it defeat you Spray.

You can make it if you want to, one day at a time.

We will be here when you return, same as always, take your time, and come back when you can.

Rasbelin · January 8, 2003, 15:17

Oh, so sad Spray.

Good luck to you.

P.S. Grr... you forget me from the post.

boann · January 8, 2003, 15:28

well my friend, you know where to find me if you need to talk.

Clear Skies · January 8, 2003, 15:38

Good luck Sprayber...all our thoughts are with you.

Az · January 8, 2003, 16:04

Sprayber, you're probably one of the most intelligent, and thoughtful Poly posters. May time bring remedy to your wounds. I hope that life will bring you back to a path of a happier existance. From your posts you seem like a very strong individual. Things will get better for the likes of you. Take care.